I need to vent…

I’ll try to keep this short, which shouldn’t be an issue. I’ve been in a foggy place lately, and I’ve had the hardest time concentrating on anything. I know and can feel that my mind is chemically unbalanced. Way more lows than highs lately. I don’t want to feel this way, this constant anxiousness just makes me uneasy and tense. Ive put this mask on for the sake of sparing the negativity often associated with how I feel. I’ve done this so long that I don’t know how I truly feel. Lately its been different, that gut dropping feeling has made a home of my stomach. The mask Itself feels odd and unfamiliar.

Sleep lately has been impossible! It’s almost as if my body forgot how to sleep. A perfect example is now; I’ve been up all night, and I maybe got 2-3 hours of sleep the day prior. Im exhausted, my eyes burn, and my concentration is shot. Despite how I feel, I cannot fall asleep. Trying to view my thoughts in the form of words as I lay here hoping to find myself in them. I just need a hug, a good hug.

Part 2. Intro to Heartbreak

One of the worst parts of having ADHD is holding on to what you think know is a great idea, and poof! It simply disappears, only to be replaced by something as random as the moment I accidentally sneezed and farted at the same time in 5th grade (it was my second day). Another horrible result of ADHD is simply overthinking, over analyzing, and over processing any situation.  When you experience something like Heartbreak, and your mind works as mine does….its simply torture. 

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